nearly a year ago, i made a wish for better times to come in 2011, as i was realizing 2010 was the worst year ever.
but the new year brought it’s own battles too. now i realize without the bad times of 2011, i would have never been able to achieve the good.
this past year, i lost myself and found myself. i disrespected myself and lost the respect of so many people around me. i went from crying uncontrollably every day to appreciating every minute. i pushed myself to the emotional limits, thought my world was ending and then built it back up again from rock bottom. i lost friends and family. but i also gained family through my friends, and realized who actually mattered and who was just wasting my time.
after this year, i truly feel like an old soul trapped in a young body. i have so much respect for others, love and kindness. i learned that being at the right place and the right time for someone can save their life.
almost always, i felt like no believed in me. but then i learned the only person who needs to believe in myself, is me. this quarter alone, i achieved more than i could ever have dreamed possible.
if you would have told me a year ago where i would be today, i would have never believe i could come that far. it’s amazing how much can change in a year.
while 2011 was rollercoaster, to say the least, i’m unbelievably grateful it’s ending on a high. i hope i can ride it through 2012. i’m excited but nervous for what the next year will bring. the year i turn 21, that i’ll book an international flight for the first time (hopefully), and the beginning of my last year in college.
as “real life” approaches, i’m realizing how important it is to savor every one of these college moments, good and bad. i guess sometimes you just have to buckle up and enjoy the ride.
